After all that fightin' I lost the battle

I've been runnin' from reality and maself 4 so damn long. With everyday passin' by I get closer 2 havin' 2 face'em all. I can't keep on runnin'..I can't pull maself together anymore, I need 2 let it all out..I need a place 2 hide and let all out..

T A N G L E D

Felt like tryin' somethin' new with the lineart..bs I dun like it much ._.

Anyways, hope ya like it :)

Cannibal - Ke$ha

I always liked her songs but I dun like her as a person, and actually dun give a shit 'bout her xD

But I REALLY really like this song. I find it very romantic! xD
I'm addicted 2 it now and I think its ma new inspiration 4 drawin' *u*
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Rawr! Rawr!
I have a heart, I swear I do
But just not, baby, when it comes to you
I get so hungry when you say you love me
Hush if you know what's good for you
I think you're hot, I think you're cool
You're the kind of guy I'd stalk in school
But now that I'm famous, you're up my anus
Now I'm gonna eat you, fool!

[chorus]
I eat boys up
Breakfast and lunch
Then, when I'm thirsty, I drink their blood
Carnivore, animal, I am a cannibal
I eat boys up
You better run
I am cannibal! (Cannibal, cannibal, I am!)
I am cannibal! (Cannibal! I'll eat you up!)
I am cannibal! (Cannibal, cannibal, I am!)
I am cannibal! (Cannibal! I'll eat you up!)

Whenever you tell me I'm pretty
That's when the hunger really hits me
Your little heart goes pitter patter
I want your liver on a platter
Use your finger to stir my tea
Then, for dessert, I'll suck your teeth
Be too sweet and you'll be a goner
Yep, I'll pull a Jeffrey Dahmer

[chorus]
I eat boys up
Breakfast and lunch
Then, when I'm thirsty, I drink their blood
Carnivore, animal, I am a cannibal
I eat boys up
You better run
I am cannibal! (Cannibal, cannibal, I am!)
I am cannibal! (Cannibal! I'll eat you up!)
I am cannibal! (Cannibal, cannibal, I am!)
I am cannibal! (Cannibal! I'll eat you up!)

Oh-whoa-whoa-oh!
Oh-whoa-whoa-oh-oh!
Oh-whoa-whoa-oh!
Oh-whoa-whoa-oh-oh!
Oh-whoa-whoa-oh!
Oh-whoa-whoa-oh-oh!
Oh-whoa-whoa-oh!
Oh-whoa-whoa-oh-oh!

I am cannibal! (Cannibal, cannibal, I am!)
I am cannibal! (Cannibal! I'll eat you up!)
I am cannibal! (Cannibal, cannibal, I am!)
I am cannibal! (Cannibal! I'll eat you up!)

I love you
I warned you
Rawr!


And I juz downloaded "Dancing With Tears in My Eyes" and "We R Who We R", they're both 'kay (y)

Ma Light Box

I had 2 be creative in order I can ink ma sketches 2 color'em xD

Ya can buy a Light Box bs since l.Q8 r so considerant 'bout art and talent they dun seal it here.

BS.....
Now the light in ma lightbox broke, its not workin' and I'm in the middle 'o a very important drawing. I NEED a new light TT~TT

Saro goin' throu ma laptop

O_O

On friday she wanted 2 use ma laptop 2 give me her photos 2 make her a video and 4 some "reason" she whined up in ma picture folder cuz she didn't find the CD files (knowin' that ma laptop always automatically opens the suggested programs list). It was 'kay cuz the pics that I dun want anyone 2 see r somewhere else...but then she opened the CD usin' the Photo Gallery program! >__<
It shows ALL the pics I got on the laptop and I caught her peekin' throu'em. Its not like what I'm hidin' is really much 'o a big deal bs still..she dun know 'bout it and I never wanted her 2 know. There was some pics 'o me that I dun want anyone 2 see...aaaaaand..there r the yaoi pics x"D
What 2 say, I'm a pervert and I like yaoi (gay stuff). Besides, even the yaoi pics on ma laptop r only soft yaoi, nothin' hardcore-ish, only kisses and hugs..etc. O a9lan I dun like hardcore yaoi. The only hardcore yaoi I see is when I read a yaoi manga, and some mangas got a real cute and interestin' storys that make ya over look the hardcore stuff u_u

Bs still, that doesn't give ANIMES a bad name, y3ny kl wa7d o thou8a, if ya wanna watch shojo, si-fi, shounen-ai..etc, ya can find all kinds 'o animes and ya get 2 choose what 2 watch and what's not 2 watch

Uni break

An update l3yon Slashy <3 xD

I have a break from 10a.m tel 3p.m every sun, tue, and thu. And cuz I hate Kayfan so darn much I tend 2 leave the minute I'm done..bs sometimes everybody else in ur life r juz busy so ya have 2 spend the time all by urself. And that's exactly what I'm doin'! XD
I'm watchin' j-drama in ma car and drinkin' 39eer Kayfan (bs 8a'9ayt 3lah xD )
Oh, and demand connection bl mawa8f, y3ny there r wierd ppl like me who'd rather spend their break in the car than spendin' it inside!

Katy Perry - Firework

Katy's new song is super-aweaome-inspirin' TTuTT

Get divorce from that bi and MARRY ME! *0*


Lyric:
Do you ever feel like a plastic bag
Drifting through the wind
Wanting to start again

Do you ever feel, feel so paper thin
Like a house of cards
One blow from caving in

Do you ever feel already buried deep
Six feet under scream
But no one seems to hear a thing

Do you know that there's still a chance for you
Cause there's a spark in you

You just gotta ignite the light
And let it shine
Just own the night
Like the Fourth of July

Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what your worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y

Baby you're a firework
Come on let your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gonna leave 'em fallin' down-own-own

You don't have to feel like a waste of space
You're original, cannot be replaced
If you only knew what the future holds
After a hurricane comes a rainbow

Maybe you the reason why all the doors are closed
So you can open one that leads you to the perfect road

Like a lightning bolt, your heart will blow
And when it's time, you'll know

You just gotta ignite the light
And let it shine
Just own the night
Like the Fourth of July

Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what your worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y

Baby you're a firework
Come on let your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gonna leave 'em fallin' down-own-own

Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
It's always been inside of you, you, you
And now it's time to let it through

Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what your worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y

Baby you're a firework
Come on let your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gonna leave 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"

Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon

Art Club...big 'X'

I DUN WANNA JOIN IT ANYMORE

Cuz..
1. All the ppl I was tryin' 2 avoid r there
2. El.moshrf is super weird and he tryed 2 teach me anwa3 el.56 3araby instead 'o helpin' me in improvin' ma art 4 some reason O_o""
3.He doesn't even know how 2 CG, it was a roamer >:|
4. The club is SO damn small o there isn't even a table 2 draw on, only few stands (which r all already in use with sucky still life paintings !!)

Srysly, Kaifan sucks. I wanna go back 2 Jabrya TT~TT
Maybe I should start thinkin' 'o jaoinin' the Basketball Club :p

Art Club ?

8arart I'm gonna join the Art Club..2mrw !!

Not cuz I want 2 bs 3shan ab6 3yoon 2 girls ma friend have been makin' me hangout with lately. They look down @ me juz cuz they both r mangakas while I'm not >_>
[Mangaka = Manga artist]
I'm nervous, cuz they might not accept me in the club (nfs ma swaw club Handasa, ma 8amaw yst8blon anime artists eb sbat group esena ely 6afat..lel asaf, now I know hal group o no wonder 6rdohom o 5rbaw sm3at all el.anime artist _ _" )

Anywayz, if I ever got accepted I'm gonna ask him help in drawin' poses and 2 give me some CGin' tips, I heard he's good at CGin'.
[CG = Computer Graphic]

Finally, I'm gonna have a place 2 stay in to in ma VERY long break and do somethin' I like~ *u*

Pfffffffffffft

Is it really that hard 2 find someone 2 go out with ?!!
Tsl6aw kl rb3y 3ndhom derasa wala t3baneen, o ana 7ddy feeny 6l3a. Aby aswy ay shay, el.mohem ma a'9l bl bayt..

SHASAWY ?? HELP PLZ
:'( ehe2

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10/10/2010

I had ma 1st car accident!!!

:'(

Drawing Drama...

When I finally got 2 know everythin' 'bout drawin'... I suddenly find maself a loser in it!
Whenever I post a drawin' no body comments, whenever I try ma best 2 create an awesome illustration I hate it when I'm done with it cuz I know its aint good enough
I'm sick 'o the fact that I'll NEVER be good enough.

I'm meetin' a new artist almost everyday, since I join a Q8y art group
And whenever ppl ask me when did ya start draw..that's were it gets awkward, I tell'em I started drawin' at the age 'o 14 and I only started usin' the tablet last year, so yeah, I DO SUCK and I dun blame me startin' late 4 suckin'...I blame the lake 'o support and ppl not tellin' the truth. I could need some help if only they told me: oh, ya suck at drawin' poses or at shadings or any other thin'..I really dunno what's wrong when its wrong!
And yeah, I might take it too personally and try 2 make up excuses 4 ma mistakes bs afterward I try 2 fix'em and make'em look better.
I'm tryin' ma best..I know I am....bs what's the point?


Shit, that's a whole load 'o crap. Sorry _ _"

Right now I'm..

* Playin': Kingdom Hearts: Birth By Sleep

* Watchin': Kuroshitsuji 2
( oh, and I'll be watchin' Kuro throu ma BlackBerry so there won't be full reviews 4 every episode )

* Readin': The Tyrant Falls in Love (yaoi manga)

* Waitin' 4: Bakugan (anime) and Togainu no Chi (anime) both comin' soon..

Toradora

OMG! This anime is so freakin' awesome even thou its a shojo (romance) anime I REALLY liked it!
I cryed on the whole ep.24 TTT^TTT

And its better 2 watch it before readin' the plot, cuz its really full 'o surprises and emotions and better experience it all x')
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Sayoonara, ma friend

Ya promised then ran away..
Ya left me worryin' and didn't care..
So I got used 2 it and found ma escape
Dun come now and tell ya need me there!

No more guiltz in ma life.
Wanted 2 do this 4 so long and I finally did it.
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Kingdom Hearts: Birth By Sleep

I HAVE IT!!! *0*

Yesterday I spent the whole day on ma PSP, downloadin' KHBBS. I found an "unofficial" translated torrent and started downloadin' and excitement run throu ma veins~
But I had a lil problem, ma PSP version is juz too damn old so had 2 download a new one (with the stupid e-go it was juz a pain in the @$$). Had 2 chang it from 3.90 M33 to 5.00 M33-5
around 2:30 a.m today it finally worked! X3

So, I started playin', took some souvenir pics x'D
..Then..all what I see and hear is japanese!!! O_O
There r some untranslated parts in the game, and all the voice r in japanese (KH voice actors suck, I want Jesse McCartney T_T )
Tryed 2 suck it up and juz play..but I couldn't >_<
I wanna know everythin' I really dun care 'bout "playin'" the game, the most important thin' is the story.
I'm gonna wait til 10/9 ( I waited 4 SO DAMN long, I think I can manage 4 another 2 days, ne?). The official english version should be out. I HAVE 2 HAVE IT x3

Anywayz, right now I'm playin': DissiDia: Final Fantasy (juz downloaded it ^^; )

Kuroshitsuji II ep.10

OMG, GRELL IS HILARIOUS xD
the whole episode i was LMAOin' b'cuz 'o him

ehem..so, after Cloudo takin' Ciel away, Ceil spent the night at Alois's mansion. he was still Ciel but his mmrys r screwed up. anywayz, then that creep Cloudo was was flirttin' every single inch 'o Ciel's body (chenah mo shayf 5ayr! >:o )
*crack* <<Sebby broke the tree and made a huge noise xD
Ciel told Cloudo 2 check it out, but..but on Cloudo's way out he kissed Ciels foot!!!!!! O_O
then Ciel kicked that ass face 'o his and told him not 2 do such disgustin' things (god, i luved ya even more Ciel 4 this x3 )

then, Ciel went 2 the gardn 2 clear his head with all those messed up mmrys and thoughts. he takes all his anger on the roses but then accently hits Hanna..she tell him 's'kay hit ma again, take all ur anger on me...then he..he "blushs" and give her a hand 2 stand up!!!!!! WTF, ya're aint supposed 2 blush infront 'o maids, ya only get 2 blush infront 'o Sebby, ya cheater x(

*drools*

anywayz,  back 2 Sebby and Grell. they went 2 Alois hometown and had 2 fight the 3 purpled headed dudes who work with Cloudo.the fight didn't last long..BUT en he asked Grell 2 finish'em off Grell refused so he ad 2 use his secret weapon, his hottness *Q*
Grell had a nose bleed juz like the rest 'o us o'course then finished'em off without hesitation xD

after all that, Sebby headed 2 the mansion and faced Cloudo and broke the black rose promise, things heated up b'cuz breakin' a promise between devils always means a fight. and so they did start one <<Sebby, fightoooo~ x3

BUT!!
in the middle 'oe fight, Ciels voice was callin' 4 Sebby!! <<kyaaaaa x3
but he had 2 hide himself before Ciel sees him but Ciel already saw him..and thats mean that he's no longer a butler *GASP* TT^TT
...but, apperently, this time it was Alois's soul who's takin' over Ciel's body. he's no longer Ciel!

 VERY TENSE EPISODE  x3   O_O   xD   T__T

Pandora Hearts

If ya're a Kuroshitsuji fan, ya GOTTA watch it!!
Every time I watch it, it reminds 'o Kuro. Luv those 2 animes <3 *Q*

Got some very soft yaoi too xD

Plot: (I didn't write it, took it from Wikipedia)
Oz Vessalius, heir to the Vessalius dukedom, has just turned fifteen. His life is rich and carefree, darkened only by the constant absence of his father. At his coming-of-age ceremony, however, everything changes. For no reason that he can discern, Oz is cast into the prison known as the "Abyss", only to be saved by a "Chain" known as Alice, the Bloodstained Black Rabbit, B-Rabbit for short. The mystery there begins as Oz unravels the mystery behind Alice, the Abyss and the strange organization known as Pandora. The series features heavy references to Lewis Carroll's Alice's Adventures in Wonderland and Through the Looking-Glass and can be considered fantasy and mystery.

WTF, Schizophrenic!!

I juz found out 'bout "Schizophrenia" and all the symptoms aplays 2 me recently!!! : o
Bs no, its nothin' really, I know that I'm totally fine xD

Its funny knowin' that suck an illness exist and juz findin' out 'bout it.
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99 things

i already did this tag in ma DeviantArt account
why the hell not post it here too xp

but had 2 change few things cuz its been a while since i posted it in DA

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01. Real name: Shaima
002. Nickname: Shyoom, Shayma'oo, GozGoz! xD
003. Zodiac Sign: Gemini
004. Male or Female: Female
005. Elementary: Done
006. Middle School: Done
007. High School: Done
008. Hair Color: black..and soon will be with darkblue on the edges
009. Long or Short: short
010. Loud or quiet: hum..depends on who i am with
011. Sweats or jeans: I guess both
012. Phone or camera: both :3
013. Health freak: no f**kin' way xD
014. Drink or smoke: mmm…
015. Do you have a crush on someone: maybe
016. Political orientation: Nope
017. Piercings: yup
018. Tattoos: I wish Q_Q
HAVE YOU EVER [BEEN IN]:
019. Airplane: nope >_<
020. Car accident: nope
021. Fist fight: only with ototosan, does that count xD
FIRSTS:
022. First piercing: ma ears when I was a kid
023. First best friend: ma mom's friend daughter, but we’re not that close now
024. First instrument played: -
025. First award: i dun have any -_-
027. First language: Arabic
028. First big vacation: humm..cant rmmber xD

LASTS:
029. Last person you talked to: DooDa
030. Last person you texted: Amoon el.H
031. Last person you watched a movie with: DooDa~ :3
033. Last movie you watched: The Time traveler's Wife
034. Last song you listened to: Fall For You - Secondhand Serenade
035. Last thing you bought: hdoom el.3eed
036. Last person you hugged: dun rmmber..it's been a while since i last been hugged Q_Q
FAVES:
037. Food: all kinds 'o food xD
038. Drinks: pepsi
039. Clothing: black jeans with t-shirts
040. Book: twilight saga
041. Color: Black, darkblue, purple
042. Flower: sakura
043. Music: rock *w*
044. Movies: a lot~
045. Shoes: converse or Vans
046. Subjects: NONE _ _"
IN THE PAST YEAR I... :
047. [ ] Kissed in the snow
048. [ ] Celebrated Halloween
049. [x] Had your heart broken
050. [x] Went over the minutes on your cell phone
051. [ ] Someone questioned your sexual orientation
052. [x] Came outta the closet
053. [ ] Gotten pregnant
054. [ ] Had an abortion
055. [x] Done something you've regretted
056. [x] Broke a promise
057. [x] Kept a secret
058. [x] Pretended to be happy
059. [ ] Met someone who changed your life
060. [ ] Pretended to be sick
061. [ ] Left the country
062. [x] Tried something you normally wouldn't like and liked it
063. [x] Cried over the silliest thing
064. [ ] Ran a mile
065. [x] Went to the beach
066. [ ] Stayed single
CURRENTLY:
067. Eating: nothin'
068. Drinking: nothin'
069. Getting ready to: eat xD
070. Listening to: Fall For You - Secondhand Serenade
071. Plans for tomorrow/today: *sigh* nothin' -_-
072. Waiting for: FOOOOOOD x3
YOUR FUTURE:
073. Want kids: not a chance in hell
074. Want to get married: nope.
075. Careers in mind: who knows ._.

WHICH IS BETTER ON A (GIRL)/BOY:
076. Lips or eyes: lips
077. Shorter or taller: Taller
078. Romantic or spontaneous: both x3
079. Nice stomach or nice arms: both
080. Sensitive or loud: mmm..how 'bout crazy? xD
081. Hookup or relationship: whatever works
082. Troublemaker or hesitant: troublemakers, at least i'll have some action goin' on
HAVE YOU EVER:
083. Lost glasses/contacts: nope
084. Ran away from home: ….almost
085. Held a weapon: woah, that would be fun :3
086. Killed somebody: think 'o it
087. Broken someone's heart: hell, I did
088. Been arrested: I wish x'3
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
090. Yourself: i guess
091. Miracles: not so much -_-
092. Love at first sight: NOPE. There is no such a thin'!!
093. Heaven: yup
094. Santa Claus: No!!
096. Magic: where, in beds? x'D
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
097. Is there one person you wanna be with right now: humm…
098. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life: ..dunno :s
099. Do you believe in God: yup

japanese bad words

Kaaaak, juz found this site
Its AWESOME~ xD

http://www.intercom.net/user/logan1/jap.htm

Yozakura Quartet

Its 'bout 4 teenagers runnin' an office 2 help the townsppl in anythin' they need. In this town humans and youkai co-exist, youkai have special super powers.

An anime I recently started watchin'. Its not new thou its good..I didn't like the first 3 episodes that much, but after a watched the 4th episode ENDEMAJT! :3
Cuz their ultimate enemy is usin' their friend's body, so they can't hurt him nor kill him cuz if they did they'll kill their friend as well and apparently their friend's soul somehow still exist in this body!

I like this anime's style 'o art, its by Suzuhito Yasuda, the same artist who drew Durarara x3
The style is very simple and neat. I wish I could draw somethin' like that, so not like ma style 'o art but sure I do wanna try it out one day x')

Kuroshitsuji II ep.9

so yeah, im a HUGE Kurushitsuji fan~
thou i liked season 1 more than season 2..but things started 2 look interesting now in season 2!!
the ep. starts with that asshole Cloudo talkin' 2 the other servents 'bout what 2 do eith Alois soul (in the ring) after he killed him T^T when i finally started 2 like that lil creep tha bastard killed him, soooo naot fair Q_Q

anywayz, things happen then Ciel is tryin' 2 follow Sebastian he sees Alois's shadow and trys 2 follow him but then the police comes and mistake Ciel 4 Alois all b'cuz 'o Hanna <<i thought she's nice -_-
AND THEN...
that damn Cloudo turns Ciel against Sebe and puts o Alois's ring (that contain his soul) on Ciel's finger!! *GASP* O_O

then, Sebe walks in and realizes everythin'...and..and then Ciel orders Sebe 2 go away!!!!!!!!!!! TTTT__TTTT

look at that face, total heart break TTTT^TTTT
ita all Cloudo's fault, i haaaaaate him x(

anywayz, at the end, Sebe turns all black with wired evil oura around him, wich is so hot x3
wich reminds me 'o the last ep. 'o the first season when he told Ciel 2 close his eyes cz he's turnin' 2 his real dvil form..and he was wearin' heels!! xD

daym, i luv Sebe x Ciel x3

k7 k7

Hi there, whoever is readin' ma crap :p

I'm totally new 2 this whole blogin' thingy and I have a very strong feelin' that I won't last long in it x'D

I'm mostly gonna blog 'bout animes and outaku's stuff..oh, and if ya're a homophobic I dun think readin' ma blog is a very good idea x'D
I tend 2 turn everythin' in 2 gay and whenever I see or read anythin' I start havin' these perverted yaoi/yuri (mostly yaoi) fantasies in ma head xD
I juz srysly find this phrase very true: "Gay is the new straight"

I'm a yaoi/yuri supporter and I'm not ashamed 2 say it out loud :p

In case if ya dunno
Yaoi means: Boy's Love
Yuri means: Girl's Love

peace