Losing.

I knew all along that no matter how hard I work ill never win, cuz in this kind of contests it all depends on talent and popularity. Yet there was something in me pushing me 2 work harder and harder..this "something" is fading now, and Zahoor's not helping at all. She's waisting her time and I'm getting busier and emo-er with each day passes.
Ill definitely lose. Cuz I'm doing it 4 all the wrong reasons.